What is normal? It is more and more difficult for me to define. Maybe because it has il used me for so long or maybe because it just doesn't live here anymore. Gone are the days of going to work on Monday morning and working a forty to sixty hour week and attending the regular meetings on the appointed days of the week. Now I never really know what's going to happen today or tomorrow. I used to enjoy the rock and roll life where I never knew what would happen next. But suddenly my perspective has shifted and I feel a real need for a routine I can count on ... A calendar I can trust to stay the same. I am tired of not knowing. Time for a change. Working for myself has benefits and responsibilities. The flexibility that I wished for has become the uncertainty I wish was gone. Be careful what you wish for. A plan for me has always been something to base change on. Now I long for one that sticks. The sands of my BEACH are shifting.